Isn't life just great

My friend killed no one told me so I missed the funeral, well that sucks moving on... All these people who are jailbirds start coming up tome and telling me nick, my bronot doing good. I rack my brain completating all plausible scenarios that involve my little bro meeting any of these people and the only places I can think of are (a) the streets of downtown or (b) jail. I hpe that my brother became homelss its a much nicer scenario. Sick with worry I check online and sure enough, my bro is FUCKED. And I mena FUCKED. tHEY ARRESTED HIM ON HIS 18 BIRTHDAY. hE'S GOING TO BE TRIED AS AN ADULT. jUST WONDERFUL. oN HIS BIRTHDAY. gEEZ tHEy COULD have some decencey. what the fuck. Robbery, kidnapping, unlawful use of a weapon where the fuck did he get a weapon gun?. And he got arrested in july and my parents didn't tell me anything. I had to find out he was in trouble from some scum fuck junkie who is a piece of shit. To sum up a complete asshole is willing to be nicer to me than my own fucking parents!!!! July thats three months ago!!! Is it drug related I hope not heroin,I know hes a pothead but geez potheads don't really rob for drugs. I am at a complete loss of what to do about this. I really hate my mo, that fucking cunt doesn't tell me shit. If every person Iwas related too was lying dead in ditch she wouldnt say shit. Oh my god am I really the most dencent put together person in my family? How sad.

Ammonia

I see why they call it p-town
The ammonic smell of piss clings to every fucking corner imaginable
Bums stacked like dominoes on 10th
One wrong move and everything falls apart

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST!!!
Can I please go one month without hearing someone I know is dead or dying?
Is that too much to ask
I found out a frien is in a coma
They think someone beat him
Who would want beat someone so exceedingly gentle
I never heard him say anything bad about anyone
I need to get out of this town
Sorrow is marked on me like a tatoo
To many bad merioes
I need to find a happier place asap

Hassan

Hassan
AKA Hassain


Hassan was love in human form
Always there to lend a hand
To care and understand
He was more than my friend he was my brother
Friends and family were the center of his world
His life revolved around them
As faithfully as the earth revolves around the sun
I never before had a friend I was never angry with
And I never saw him get upset and raise his voice, he was too gentle
Hassan will always be a part of my heart
Live on in our memories
I didn’t ever say I love you
So I’m saying it now
We spent all Tuesday together
Watched the sunset, It was so beautiful like you
And I liked to think for you
That night we poured out our souls and you cried in my arms
You were constantly laughing and repeating
“I bust rhymes like you bust Tequila’s lamp”
Why going to have rap battles and watch sports games with now?
A part of me is aching and broken
And I know I’ll ever stop missing you
Hassan was the kind of person I strive to be
His compassion set me free
He taught me how to see the good everyone
I wish you were here toss just what our friendship meant to me
But I’m also thankful for the five years we knew each other
Rest in peace my homie, and Godspeed

Lesson learned

Today I learned an important lesson. Love is not selfish so why should I be?

Red rimmed

Beyon these red rimmed eyes
Someone sick of having to hide
If you knew mary jane, I wouldn't have to explain
Between crashes, burn and flashes
The mother of all the grasses
Living So Dreary
Until along comes drug theory as pioneered by Timothy Leary
What's the difference between rationalityand insanity anyw

23

23 today, but I don't know what to say
seems like just another day
First birthday with money
but its funny
I feel no different
well, maybe more responsible.

God didn't breathe life into me

I don't know my place in this vastless vaccum of space
I can't say I know much bout the human race
but I know God didn't breathe life into me
and our past darwian just couldn't see

Its hard to swallow, but they're rearing us since were young
to believe in two theories that will come undone
the people who teach such ways
would leave us all better off if they just went away

I don't know my place in this vastless vaccum of space
I can't say I know much bout the human race
but I know God didn't breathe life into me
and our past darwian just couldn't see

I don't know much about my birth, but I know no god created the heavens and earth
I don't much about the past, but I know darwins theory won't last

I don't know my place in this vastless vaccum of space
I can't say I know much bout the human race
but I know God didn't breathe life into me
and our past darwian just couldn't see

Can't you see the light
and realize we don't what theories right
that we can't understand
how the earth came to be populated by man

I don't know my place in this vastless vaccum of space
I can't say I know much bout the human race
but I know God didn't breathe life into me
and our past darwian just couldn't see
inpired by "the monkey's no kin to me"

Winter Tree

Allow me to be like a tree
bending but not broken
Opening their stomata to take in water
So too, open my mind so I can absorb the sea of knowledge
leaves of ignorant thought wither and are cast off
Barr my soul as a winter tree
New growth in the spring

Anger is like an echo, it will always return
Expanding and becoming hotter as a marshmallow in the microwave
I wish I didn't hate i know its wrong but I just don't know how to love Like my sister not inviting me to her reception because I don't believe in god makes me hate religion.

If only

You're only scared because you don't know the human being behind the stigma
If you only knew that beyond what you see is someone just like you

If you're always looking ahead, you don't know where you currently tread
If your always looking behind what's in front of you you'll never find

we put the tiger in a cage
extinguishing its mighty rage
I hope the people enjoy their broken wind up toy
If William Blake knew the tiger we'd forsake
I wonder if he'd rewrite tiger burning bright
tiger tiger growing dim surrounded by forest of jungle gyms
our children will have to use a picture to frame its fearful symmetry

Angie

Why was I the last to know?
Such a devastating blow, I never thought she'd be the one to go
We started out in elementary school
Two dorky kids no one thought was cool
And when we hit high school one of the of the last things she said was you're one of the only people I consider my friends
I had no idea her life would chose to end
I guess she couldn't overcome the classmates who mocked her or overcome the voices in her head
I had no idea her life she'd chose to end
Now I'm left with my regret, looking back it seems you always know the perfect thing to do
But now that I know the signs, I'll be ready next time